No! Don’t Stop…

When people offer you something, it is always polite of you to accept it (be it something you like or not). That’s the Malaysian way.

Peanut Butter? Yes, thank you.

Peanut Butter? Yes, thank you. I prefer Chocolate Spread actually. But Peanut Butter, I can eat that. No harm in that.

Peanut Butter? No, thank you. Do you have Strawberry Jem?

Peanut Butter? No, thank you. I’m good.

Some times the offer is just for a one time thing. Do you take something you like least still and hope for a second offer? What makes you think that there’s even a second offer?

Hey, it’s harder nowadays especially with the price hike!

And with that, I am truly thankful to Him and wish of only the Best for everyone especially for my family.

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah perjalanan kami. Kuatkan-lah iman dan semangat kami. Moga dimurahkan rezeki senantiasa dan diberkati semuaNya.

An interlude: Dear readers, I do hope that you enjoy reading our blog. And very much appreciate your thoughts on it. So do feel free to leave a comment.

I don’t know whether I am actually losing weight. What I do know is, it hurts like hell when I sit on the stairs at the LRT station doing my work on my laptop. Reason: my bum doesn’t have any cushion anymore. What I do know also is that, I can’t eat too much, I feel like puking, not bullimic though and trying not to, what a waste it would be if you puke after eating. Sheesh. And another note is the sounds. The flexibility. My joints are like making music everytime I move it. Krook Kreek. Not yet Krak though. And shifting house is not helping either. My body aches like hell, I can’t sit long (my boss always wonder why I sit bersila on the chair, etc), and move a lot, try to stretch here and there, and have been missing my gym stretching class for almost a month now. Aaaa….

Krook you are Kreek getting Krak…

Any doctors out there? What’s missing? Calcium? Fish Oil?

Yesterday I thought heck I need a quick remedy. Maybe a massage would do it. Checked out the spas around the office area, thinking that hey maybe I can get a quick fix during lunch hour. Heck no, MO is like RM500 per hour, Impiana’s like RM200 per hour. And what did I do? Nothing. Stay put and did my job. I shall stay looking and perhaps my husband gives me a quick fix, or even make it worst.

Sob sob sob…

No longer flexible!

How do you increase your blood pressure? By being stressed out, by having WORK PRESSURE.

It seems as though the company that I am currently working is taking lots of people (please dear friends, do not ask me how to apply, the best is to email the HR Department), and at the same time lose more.

Why so?

1) The company is expanding. But they have put a limit of the head counts though. It’s like life cycle, in and out, alive and dead.

2) The company values smart people with great attitudes, although there is no specific need or role for them. It’s either they just do the job, or able to move with the flow later. Some can seriously handle it. Some can’t, maybe because they are thinking about the career path, swaying too much from the originating point can be very frustrating.

3) The company has great huge expectations of every single one. After 4 to 5 interviews, I am sure it is expected so much of you, they really screened everyone. A lot is expected. Some can and some can’t live up to it. It’s tough. You should know that from the interviewing process.

4) Great expectations need lots of sacrifice. No time for family, not time to go get a partner, let alone dating. And a lot more. Health issues. A freshie got hospitalized due to asthma etc. So much more.

Funny that although I am pretty worried about everything, i am pretty set to just go with the flow. To enjoy as much as I can. I hope that I never need to pull the plug again or even do that stunt again. But rest assured dear, if it happens again, I shall fight the best that I could (ahahahaa, I think that’s not that reassuring right?!!! Since I did the same last time, and fought hard for 9 bloody long months). For now, I am trying hard to live up to the expectation; mine and theirs. And I hope I ace it soon, before I bleed profusely with no donor at hand.

p/s: Friends, I know most of you are looking for jobs, you are always encourage to try out, even with the company that I work in. Benefits are fabulous, don’t get me wrong, but please understand I can’t simply give out email addresses etc. and I have also conveyed the expectation that is required of you. So if you still feel up to it, feel free to email the HR department. That’s the best way really, and good luck with your job hunting.

I always think about how should I guide my kids; should I mold them this way or that way. Should I encourage this or that. And of course, I will get all worried on what’s best etc. Do I go by the flow? I try to.

Certain times, it’s good to think about them. Coz then, it reflects to myself. I’ve got cousins and sister who is about to embark to working life. So maybe this would be useful to them.

One major differentiation about specialist and generalist, that makes the whole line of separation, is the human interaction. Specialist tend to be more skillful in their own field, less into client/user relation, easier to get recognition at times. Of course, generalist is the fore front person, the one who knows all but expert of none, according to my friend. But I would like to add one thing; generalist ties to loose ends better, gets the communication through the specialist (who mostly speak only in their own language) and users (who sometimes forget about the main objectives). For a specialist, if he/she has done good, they will be first acknowledged. Of course, the generalists’ names are more popular but it is easier to see their bad points then. Generalists climb the corporate ladder. Specialists define their own ladder. Generalists are specialists in managing human to a certain extend. Pay varies for generalists and specialists depending on the company that you are working in. If you are a solution specialist and working in a solution house, you definitely will be high regarded. Then again, it always depend on the company itself. It seriously varies.

So be sure of what you want. It’s good to start early. Knowing what you want. Then you can mold yourself towards that direction. Get the right company. Because you see, like in my case, when I worked in a small company for my first job, the good thing about it was I was exposed to the whole IT infrastructure. You can’t simply bull me about security, nor about coding, or database etc. But if you go the big company, it is easier to be specialised, then after some time, you need to also educate yourself on human relation if you want to climb up the ladder. I am not saying that specialists do not need the human relation stuffs, they do still, but very minimal.

Getting into the right industry also makes a big deal. Of course it always best to know what you are passionate about, that will give you more, seriously, when you enjoy it, you are more satisfied, more challenged, more results, more pay, higher position bla bla bla.

Life is tough, but fair.

I’ll probably go with the flow.

Truthfully, I am doing something I don’t really like, in a department I have never thought I would be in, but I have great bosses, in a company that I never thought I would be in yet due to its core business, I believe I am in the right company. Not to mention its benefits. And Boss, if you are reading this, I am a generalist who is up for all challenges, but I have always had corporate marketing first, then corporate merger and acquisition or alignment next at heart. Ideally I hope the result would be in favor for the best of my family and myself.

p/s: Freshies, there is nothing in the world that is stress-less. Results are highly expected, make sure you don’t get sick easily, or be a baby too much. If you know you are stress-prone, take care and deal with it. Coz in this world, no one gives a damn about you. Everyone is competing. Emotions aside, it’s nothing personal just business. And with all that, please bear in mind, life has to go on. Balance it well, and I am sure you’ll do good. It also means don’t give excuses about not making it to the family dinner, or forgetting the birthdays, or not getting married, or not getting laid, or even not having kids.

If you still do so…then…I guess my message is not clear.

Good luck to guys, and good luck to me.

Pray for me aye. *wink

InsyaAllah.

“I am sooo lucky. The car nearly got me, but some guy managed to pull me off the street bank.”

“I am sooo bloody lucky. Before I went out just now, I just had a glimpse of the sky, and thought of bringing the umbrella. And now I am not drenched.”

“I am sooo very lucky. I was just at the right time, at the right place, with the right person. I now have 2 great kids smiling lovingly at me.”

Luck! What do you say about luck?

It exists, definitely. But wouldn’t you say for luck to come pass by you, you need also be ‘lucky enough’ to catch it and smart enough to know what to do about it.

That I hope the freshie grad (who doesn’t have a nice-to-look attendance) understood, that if I am so lucky, she is too, she seems to forget her 3 months extension.

Certain times luck spoils us, and with that I hope it would do so positively.

I was just told of my indecisiveness.

Everything seems to have its yin and yang. Its pros and cons. To say that I want it to be this way, there are the pros and cons, in which I am still not sure whether I am able to undertake the cons of course. The consequences.

Yes, yes. Things can be so bloody complex. Nothing comes easy. Heck no!

Decisions have to be made after thorough thinking, countercheck on all the cons especially, get all of it covered, so when it comes, you know what to do. And for those you don’t, you definitely don’t want to make that decision yet, definitely not going that way.

Having children is like no other experience - Morrie

It has always amazes me on how one could have like 10 children. And at the same time, how one not want to have kids.

As I am reading ‘Tuesdays with Morrie’, I am starting to reevaluate my life. Am I being too ambitious? Did I forget to smell the roses? Did I kiss and hug my kids enough?

What if I die today? Would they remember me?

Learn to die, then learn to live - Morrie Schwartz

On another note, through this book, I come to understand how important such affection or touch can be to someone. Sometimes touching doesn’t mean the skin-to-skin touch. Touching can be as simple as listening attentively, holding the person to your heart, arousing purely innocent feeling of love, appreciation, giving hope, implanting faith and giving assurance that they matter. I think that’s what everyone needs most.

The company i work in talks about Corporate Social Responsibility (CSR). What would you do? Paint the houses to give the unfortunate some sensed of what a beautiful place they live in, or touch their heart by comforting that there is someone who cares…

Where would you go then? Orphanage? Old folks home? Or hospitals? Centres?

It reminded me of Amazing Race. There was once they had the task of painting an orphanage, and donate some money. That seems realistic given the time they were given. Merely a few hours, the lesser the better.

But we are talking about a day here. A day to give your community something in appreciation for those you have taken or be totally ignorant of. 1 out 365 days. And you never realize that this kid here has no one to listen to his fears of not making it tomorrow, to listen to his dream of getting out of this place (be it so nice and colorful - he still wants to move out of it brilliantly, not into some other worst dump), to give him hope that someone do care that there is still that light somewhere out there. What if he turns out right? What if at the very moment, he feel at peace? Would that be so much satisfying than to see the fresh painted wall which will only be full of mold in months to come…

I feel that in this world of striving for success and working hard, we tend to be so ignorant about so much. It’s not about saving money, or about being healthy, that’s the consequences. It’s about the responsibility. Your responsibility to the Earth that has been given to you unconditionally. Being ignorant towards everything around you makes you no hero but a villain worst than any, because you rob not your generation’s, but years of next-generations. Think of how many you killed. Thousands. Millions. Of course, if you are truly responsible, God gives you even more. Look at how much those green-themed estates are making overseas? The projects? The eco-energy technology? Equipments?

ECO-RESPONSIBILITY + HUMAN/FLORA/FAUNA-RESPONSIBILITY = CSR (COMMUNITY/CORPORATE SOCIAL RESPONSIBILITY) 

Dont bother about the title.. it is a line from Stolen by Butterfingers…

But yes, I am confused when someone want to send other someone to a drop-zone.. say LRT station, or hotel/shopping complex/hospital lobby.. why this other some has to drive???? Most of the cases, the someone is an XX and the other someone, of course an XY.. I guess would be simple if XY stopped the car, got out, XX switched to driver seat and drove away.. but thats not the case!! Typically it will be like this.. XY stop the car, taking own sweet time ie hug and kisses (yet still acceptable..) before getting the butt out, worst when XX start jumping to driver seat.. rearrange handbag position.. take off high heels *easier to drive barefooted i guess, adjust rear view mirror, check out side mirrors.. opps look back at rear view mirror.. * this time to check if any smudges on make-up.. put on drive mode.. oppps.. forgot to fasten seat belt.. put back to neutral.. fasten seat belt… and slowly drive away..

OH COME ON!!! SIMPLIFY!! just let XX drive our from your porch!!! You may think it is additional 2 minutes taken.. you are wrong.. lets look from Project management perspective.. one car, 2 people.. while so-called macho XY dont let his beloved XX drive the car while he’s in it, 4 other cars are waiting in-line at the drop-zone.. thats roughly 2 x 2 x 5 = 20 man minutes.. if 20% out of 200 cars at one drop zone, do this every morning .. do your own math on how many mandays has been unnecessarily wasted per year!!

Oh, please bare with me.. It is a tired Thursday Blues…

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These few days, we noticed lil Miss is already manage to pull herself up, we saw her standing proudly inside her cot.. and yesterday.. I’d to bring down the cot floor to stage two.. with some help from Jr who claimed himself ‘I Handy Manny, I’ll help you daddy; and 20 minutes later.. yes DONE!!

now she couldnt climb out.. and HE couldnt climb IN.. he tried hard to climb in to join his lil sister inside the cot, perhaps wanted to tell her he helped daddy did it.. but to no avail.. the sides now too high for him to climb.. we laughed hard at him.. he ran out of the room.. and came in again a little later, shouting.. ‘I’m confused.. I’m confused.. I’m confused!!!”
and ran around us..

We were also confused.. where he learnt the words.. and whether he understood it.. eitherway.. he really looked like one confused little boy.. We then laughed even harder..

p/s: oh.. anyone knows where to print a huge banner? One football team is coming to town in July and I plan to bring Jr along to stadium.. maybe with a huge banner with either “BRING BACK THE SPECIAL ONE!!” or “Miss Abramovich, Will you marry my son?”

Am I getting old or what?!!! Yes yes yes…the big 3 is fast approaching. I did blog on that earlier, and about lots of other things. I am sacrificing my lunch here, because I just need to let go of some stuffs. Amazingly, writing can do that.

Yes, I just started working after a year of pure totally challenging life of being a mother and a wife and a daughter. And yes, although I had hope to work in a different discipline altogether, but my periuk nasi is currently here. So what to do? Survival of the fetus, and I am still surviving. Working my ass as much as I could until I hear ‘yes, we do want you to be permanent, but the contract still remains as it is’. Of course, who would want to change the contract, but it feels good to know that i am somehow still valuable to the working world. And i hve not lost touch of too many things. and now that i am getting there, i am breathing better and set my curfew to 1930. believe me when i say that if i didn’t do so, you would be surprised to know that i worked even into the night later. but then again, the curfew is for my kids, once they are asleep, i always try to do some more work if i am not tired that is. though it seems so these few weeks. then again, thanks to Zen who mentioned that i am still the sole homemaker, you can say i am still struggling to manage my time the best that i can.

so, someone asked me what happened to my blog? i hope the above para gives you the answer. but i have to tell you that when i replied queserasera’s tag few weeks back, it got me into thinking about stuffs, which i seriously hve to thank you. here goes the tag:

FAVORITE BREAKFAST IS: nasi lemak, fawwaz’s roti telur bawang cili special
THE MOVIE I’VE WATCHED MOST NUMBER OF: tv series?
LEAST FAVORITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL: science-related
SPEND MY LEISURE TIME: i have only have min scarcely nowadays; when showering or poo2ing or check my mail or lunch time
WORST SMELL? rebung
IF I COULD HAVE ANY CAR IN THE WORLD, WHAT WOULD IT BE? BMW Z5
FAVORITE HOUSEHOLD CHORE? ? chore is a chore, so none is a favorite.
WHEN I WAS A KID I DREAMT OF BECOMING A: accountant
FAVORITE COLOR/s?: all but yellow, and dull colours
FAVORITE PERFORMER(S)? ning, not that i have others
IF I COULD REPEAT COLLEGE, I’D TAKE: corporate marketing
THREE THINGS I CAN’T FORGET BEFORE GOING TO OFFICE? bath, ironed clothes?, carry nayla
FIRST THING I’LL BUY WITH MY FIRST SALARY: had mine with dinner for entire family
I’D LIKE TO BE REMEMBERED AS: authentic, exquisite, extraordinary shariza?!!!
IF A BOOK WAS MADE INTO A MOVIE, WOULD YOU STILL BOTHER TO READ THE BOOK? normally i would do eithr or
SPECIALTY IN COOKING? tomyam-based thingy, and maggi assam laksa
PRESENT CRUSH(ES)? my two angels
FAVORITE HANG-OUT? tesco, curve, ou
BEST PLACE TO SHOP? flea market
DO YOU LIKE TO WATCH PLAYS? dont normally get the chance to
FAVORITE PLACE IN YOUR HOUSE? bedroom
BEST GIFT YOU’VE RECEIVED? my 2 angels
WEIRDEST GIFT YOU’VE RECEIVED? my 2 angels
GIFT THAT YOU WANT TO RECEIVE AS OF THIS MOMENT? mac iphone, mac powerbook, mac cosmetics
YAHOO OR HOTMAIL: yahoo
LEFT OR RIGHT: both
BLACK OR WHITE: white
BLACK OR BLUE PEN: Black
SANDALS OR SHOES: sandals
COLGATE OR HAPPEE: sensodyne (just bought yesterday coz my teeth hurts almost everyday now)
CHOPSTICKS OR SPOON AND FORK? chop n fingers
ROBOCOP OR RAMBO: none
JOLLIBEE OR McD: mcd
COKE OR PEPSI: coke
LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO: my boss who’s pestering me to go for lunch
LAST PERSON WHO TEXTED YOU: digi; received reload bonus
LAST PERSON WHO MADE YOU LAUGH: Faeq (Daddy: Sape lagi handsome? the guy on the billboard (brad) or daddy? Faeq: Faeq!)
LAST TIME I CRIED: mostly in my heart
YOU SEE ME ALWAYS DRINKING: milo (at work)

5 things found in my bag
*handphone
*berry
*purse
*lipbalm
*handcream

5 things found in my purse
*IDs
*plastic money
*money
*receipts
*gender calendar

5 things I’ve always wanted to do
*write a book
*travel
*live overseas
*bungee jumping
*zorbing

5 things I’m currently into
*work
*branding
*single storey houses
*faeq’s school
*nayla’s constipation

testing testing…because i posted like 4 yesterday, but disappeared